Showing posts with label Deployment. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Deployment. Show all posts

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Peter, My Love, My Best Friend, My Hero

I met my husband back in 2006, ah I still remember it like it was yesterday!!!! He was so QUIET!!!! and naturally I was so LOUD! When I met him, I cant say it was LOVE at first sight but it was definitely awe at first sight and I knew there was something about him I wanted to get to know more of.... fast forward 2011, He is deployed right now, and I just cant wait to have him home again. I miss his silly jokes, staying up late when we would know that the next day we would both be SOOO TIRED specially when the kids were in bed super early! I miss HIS HELP definitely! I miss us 5 having dinner together, I miss his smile! I miss watching him play with the kids, I miss having someone to talk to, the only person that can always make it better. Specially when I was having a hard time dealing with Autism. Sometimes I secretely miss Yuma, not because of what YUMA IS lol but because I had my husband home! Today, I was driving to Pendleton to go apply for housing and of course like always long rides and listening to music remind me so much of Peter! A song i heard that i used to think was SOOO ANNOYING and he would play it FULL BLAST on his way to work started playing and I couldnt change the radio station, and how annoying it was that I knew all the words! because it isnt a song I was a big fan of lol Then I heard songs from when we first started listening to country music together... I got all emotional but in a good way. It made me smile because I know he is thinking about us just how we always think of him. I truly cannot wait for my husband to be back home! but its all "downhill" from here, we have made it just a little over 4months, so only a few more left!!! ahh I cant wait! I truly miss my best friend!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Havent POSTED IN A WHILE!!!

I have been so busy lately, that at night i just cant just sit and type away like I would love to, and my phone, well i end up not posting and it saves it to my sd card in there. lol Here is a little of what has been going on with us lately

Deployment: WE ARE HALF WAY DONE!!!! I'm SOOO excited! I cant believe that its already JULY!!! We really miss Peter a lot and I feel so lucky I got to talk to peter twice in the last three days!!! We are getting ready to send over another care package, I havent sent one since the beginning of June, We decided that we need to cut back on them since we started paying for Kaitlyn's Parent Training Therapy. So anyone want to adopt Peter and send a care package feel free to! :) My parents have been nice enough to buy him stuff for me to put in his next few care packages, and of course if i find something on sale I'll buy it. Everyone, Please keep praying for our Marines that are deployed along with Peter.
Us at home: We havent been doing much lately besides therapy, yesterday for 4th of July, we just stayed home. It was too hot to go anywhere and I didnt really feel like going out somewhere with the three kids alone. Im always too afraid of something going wrong when I'm out with all three kids. Specially since Kaitlyn WILL wander off. Today Emily started a ballet class, its a class for beginners ages 3-4, It's a community Summer session here in the city, so its nice, there are only 5 other girls in there. Emily was SOOO EXCITED!!!! She kept turning around to look at us (my sister and me) and we would give her thumbs up and she would get so excited. It will really be something to look forward and a mini countdown for when peter comes home! :)

Autism: Lately Autism, or the big ugly MONSTER, has been getting the best of me, one minute I feel like we are doing so great and the next we arent. on Saturday Kaitlyn had a terrible meltdown, it made me so sad, they have these little hand crafted animals that are made out of wood, they are SUPER COOL, but Kaitlyn only wants to play with them "HER WAY" if her brother or sister touch them it creates a meltdown, our therapist said that I should bring them out all the time, because she has to learn to tolerate her siblings touching and playing along with her, and when she is in school one day, kids arent going to care if she wants to play alone or not they're just gonna want to play with the toys. So she came up to me and said "animals:)" and I said "oh wow ANIMALS :D" "lets go find them, hmmm i wonder where they are?" Kaitlyn stares at me and puts her little finger on her chin and says "I KNOW!!!!" then shows me where they are. This wasnt the respond I expected I was just planning to go on a "hunt" for them with her because I know she knows where they are at. well we took the animals out, and peter gets excited, and starts throwing them, she was screaming and crying and kicking and full on meltdown mode, I ignored her it was so hard because i just wanted to tell her it was okay. peter just wanted to play with her, but I knew it would make it worse. So i ignored, she tried making eye contact, I looked away. it broke my heart, but I had to do it. once she was a little calm I payed attention toher and praised her for calming down but as soon as Emily or Peter would get close to the toys it was meltdown central all over again. I never thought about recording her, but I recorded it to show her case worker for the Regional Center, They DO NOT want to give her any more services that she needs, because she doesnt look "autistic!" Well I recorded 10 minutes of the meltdown, I felt like I was being judged at the time, even though i was just at home with my family, like I was a bad mom, because I wasnt giving any attention until she was able to calm down. but i knew it was what i needed to do. We ended up cleaning up the toys, all of us participated in clean up. and she was a little calm after that. oh boy, that was really a tough day! and it was only the beginning of it too! but I know we have better days ahead of us. and that helps me feel a little better. :)

Monday, June 20, 2011

Bad day

having a bad day, its the first time deployment and autism have got to me this deployment. I have been going strong and haven't had a big meltdown since the day peter left (how funny today is exactly 3months) well anyway I've been doing so good keeping myself "strong" and today as I took kaitlyn to her therapy, she had a terrible melt down. It's a preschool setting therapy and she went in and wanted snack time which is at the end of her therapy or "school day" well it was circle time and circle time is something she can't tolerate, she can't sit there through out the singing and saying your name. And of course being around other kids, she had one of the worst melt downs I have ever seen, she was kicking, screaming and throwing herself and was just so upset it made me really sad. There were 4 other kids there, and one of the kids had both mom and dad there in session. He was having a little bit of a hard time I want to say that but i was so wrapped up with kaitlyn I didn't notice anyone else besides the mom that was staring at me, it didn't help that she is Asian and was staring at me like i was disgusting or like just calm your kid down already its bothering me. I hated it and it annoyed me so much. Then I glanced over as I'm trying to contain kaitlyn and saw the dad holding his son during circle time and I wished peter was there with me, even though even if peter wasn't deployed he wouldn't really ever be able to make it to her therapy sessions at that moment I wished kaitlyn didn't even have autism for me to never even wish peter was there at her therapy, I had to walk out of circle time because I started crying. It was too much for me to take in, It was embarrassing and i just ran to the bathroom, once again I wished peter was there to hold me n say everything was going to be okay. I feel like crapright now :'( I try not to complain and make the best out of our situation. I know the deployment is still present and so is autism. I just want to go hide in my bubble right now n come out once things are better. Of course I won't But still... I feel upset n angry at the world n people who don't appreciate their husbands or their children never having to suffer through this monster we are stuck with. people complain that their kid talks to much, I wish mine can talk at her age level, people complain their kid eats too much, I wish my daughter didn't have a limited diet due to her sensory problems. People are upset about their husband going away on a business trip for the weekend, I have to see mine leave on his "business trip" for seven months. I wish people would take their time to educate themselves on autism. On how staring like your disgusting is wrong. But most of all I can't wait for this nightmare to end.

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back again!!!!

I havent been posting so much lately, and last night i typed up a LONG LONG post and when i clicked POST it said there was an ERROR!!! i was so upset i just went to sleep.

I havent been posting so much lately because I havent really had time. I've been busy with the kids being sick, first it was Emily, then Peter and then Kaitlyn. They are a lot better now but since Kaitlyn got sick her autism has been cooky as well :( I zone out and get into my bubble.

I have also been on a search for new therapists!!! its so crazy and hard because i dont want to end up picking out a big NO NO therapist and have to go through the process of looking again and having had all that time wasted! kind of what i feel like now with her old therapists :(

Im so excited that we got to Skype with Peter earlier tonight! just in time for fathers day! it was like 11:30 or maybe a little later but it was still SUNDAY our time. it was really nice to see his face and just get to talk to him. I miss him like crazy!!! but so glad our deployment is almost 40% over!!!! well you know what? today will be 3 months since he left! I have survived 3 months with my husband across the world!!!! I cant believe how fast time flies! its like as long as his boot camp! and back then i thought 3 months was the end of the world!!!! it was just the beginning to a whole new world! our world now! that i wouldnt change for anything in the world! Well besides deployments lol

I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to start working out. I did a mini workout at home last night and it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be and i felt good while i was doing it! Peter kept laughing at me and trying to do what i was doing. but he would mostly laugh. I really need to loose weight! makes me think ive wasted the past 3 months not doing much of "me" that I had planned. But i feel motivated right now, we'll see how long i can keep it up.

Im off to bed now, Kaitlyn has therapy tomorrow morning at 9am and I have to wake up at like 7!! I cant believe I'm complaining about waking up at 7... but I am.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

So much to write about!!!!

I have so much to write about, I don't even know where to start so I will probably post a few tonight or just post a long one, we'll see. I'm really liking that I can post from my phone, I can write a little, take a break and write again later.

For all of you checking out my blog, thank you for reading.

Today was the BIG day!!! Something I've been wanting to do for so long! I finally made it into Rady Children's Hospital Autism Discovery Institute for PARENT TRAINING!!!!! I have heard so much about it from my friend, which I think I will write a post on my friend and everything she has helped me with. I met our new therapist today well I met her once a while ago when I took Emily to play with my friend's daughter during a session. I am so happy and excited because I know she will help me and teach me how to teach kaitlyn. We had a great first session, we didn't do much, but she was able to interact with kaitlyn and go over goals for her! The only thing I'm kicking myself for is not getting there soon, I was really hoping insurance would cover these services because it is therapy, but as of right now my insurance doesn't have a contract with them, so this will be all out of pocket expenses for our family. Which is going to be hard to balance out but I know this will help my daughter and our family so much!!!! I have considered doing some type of fundraising or raffle something to help pay for the services, but I haven't been able to come up with anything and its something I will look into more in the future.

Oh man we got to Skype with daddy last night, Emily was so happy and was showing her all her barbies!! And was showing off her new hair, and in the end she showed her a princess slipper, she was like "Daddy, I can't find the other shoe!" And was so sad so peter said, "just look for it, I'm sure you will find it" and so soon after we had to get off and after we did Emily went digging through all her shoes!!!!!! Oh boy, if you know our family you know the kids have a gazzilion shoes!!! And I was like "Emily, you are making a big mess baby" and her response "I have to look for them mommy, daddy told me to so I have to!" Then we got so lucky daddy skyped again in the morning and peter got to talk to him, he was so happy to see his daddy!!! He kept waving and pointing and would get upset if he couldn't see himself in the camera because he wanted to keep talking to his dad. Kaitlyn was asleep for both, so she didnt get to talk to him.

Oh man I have to, have to share this, today I went to the Exchange, and found a cute dress for .92 YES .92 cents!!!! And tax free so I definitely believed in core brands, corps prices haha. For those of you that don't know what the Exchange is, its just the store on base and core brands, corps prices is just what they have advertised. I also found AA batteries (10 pack) for $2.96!!! Who doesn't use AA batteries in their lives? :) I think I found some good deals, when I bought the batteries all I can think of was I wish I would've brought my coupons lol

Today I am also posting from my phone and my phone auto-corrects and sometimes as we all know auto-correct is embarrassing so if anything on here ever is embarrassing, it was probably my phone.

Posting from my phone!

So I didn't get a chance to write yesterday, but today I will, and I'm trying it out from my phone, let's see how well it works.

Yesterday Kaitlyn missed her ABA therapy session at the "preschool" setting. I was kind of upset because her therapist is not experienced and well I don't want her to work with kaitlyn because she is also doing training for the company or the program, I don't know its just annoying me and I made sure I spoke to the supervisor before going back. So tomorrow is her first day back after missing two days. I voiced out my concerns and if they are not met then I will be saying goodbye. They make enough money to not help my daughter out the way she needs help.


Kaitlyn has been having a few rough days but they seem to come and go. I really can't wait to get her on her on her diet that she needs to be on! I know it will help her plus it doesn't hurt at all to eat healthier. And well I need to start myself :)

Today peter called me and the phone was breaking up, so I was hoping we would just get on Skype since that's usually what happens he calls me to get on Skype n I do, well then he called back n when he called back we couldn't stay on the phone anymore, all he said was I love you and something else because the phone kept cutting off. I'm pretty sure he said ill call or try to call tomorrow. So that was pretty sucky. But hey hearing his voice is always better than not hearing anything.


Yesterday i was so upset. I even got real crazy on my Facebook n posted that whoever wasn't here the past 3 months will most likely not be around in our lives when peter gets home, and I wasn't kidding, it doesnt matter who you are, it makes me upset that no one is around when peter is gone (except of course the few people that have been and I'm ever so grateful) but I def don't want these people to decide to come around once peter gets home. Just really irritating and I'm sure a lot of people can relate, specially if your spouse is gone right now.


On a better note, today I went to Target with the girls and my sister I was so excited I found a Dodger Blue color nail polish!!! And on sale!!! So I bought it and came home and the bottle BROKE!!! I think I'm going to go back n buy another one tomorrow. I am also loving all the clearance deals they have going on at my local Target!!! They are making it into a Super Target with groceries and in order to make space they are marking down a lot of stuff!!! I have been able to buy peter care package stuff, and blankets for the kids, and just other household stuff.:) I love deals!!!! Haha

Oh oh oh I almost forgot, tomorrow I go down to San Diego to Rady's Children's Hospital to start Parent Training with kaitlyn with a new therapist!! I have met her before, a real good friend of mine (don't worry my friend I won't put you on blast) did the parent training there with her daughter and that was her therapist as well!!! So her new therapist is seriously kind of intimidating but if she can help me help my daughter I'm all for it!!! :)

Sunday, June 5, 2011

SKYPE

Just got to Skype with my husband, boy was it great! We talked a lot about our Vegas weekend!!! both trying to decide where we wanted to stay! All that talk and we didnt come up with ANYTHING! I have a lot of homework to do now and I need to book soon before the rates go up! I am so glad for SKYPE! We didnt use Skype last deployment to video chat, we used AIM i think, and well SKYPE is a million times better!! The kids enjoy seeing daddy, even though they all slept through it today. Everytime I open the computer they ask to call daddy on the computer. it breaks my heart because i know he would love to see them just as much as they want to see him! He said he is doing good and is good on care packages since he just got one from his dad and 4 of mine are on the way! i cant help it sometimes, but i just want to buy him everything and send it over! lol Cant wait for him to be back home! Today we ALSO talked about my cooking, I really want to learn new recipes soon to change Kaitlyn's diet along with the rest of the family! and that means home cooked meals all day everyday! I miss cooking for Peter! and having someone actually telling me they LOVE what i make for them! the kids, well they just eat it lol and say ew, yuck, yum, all done and i want more. it makes me want to go find recipes right now and start practicing :)

Marine Corps

My husband is a Marine, he is currently deployed and oh boy has it changed our lives completely. This is our second deployment, and it just seems so much harder on me than the first one. I think maybe it has to do with the fact that last time i only had 1 child to really deal with because Kaitlyn was just a baby, but this time I have all three kids! and well all three miss their daddy so much! and of course I miss him so much too! My husband and I were just "kids" when he left for boot camp, and after that day, our lives have changed SO much! I wouldnt have it any other way! it was the best decision we made and when things get rough I always think of what our lives would have been like if he wouldve never left that night, and boy am I thankful everyday for it! It was our once in a lifetime opportunity and I'm glad he took it. Our first duty station was in Yuma, AZ and I HATED it so much! I wanted to be back in California, close to our family and friends. Now that I think of it, I really miss Yuma sometimes. I didnt appreciate it as much as i should have. maybe someday we will go back. MAYBE, i sure do not miss the heat there!

I have made a few amazing friends these past few years in the Marine Corps, and this deployment I have already made some amazing friends because of the deployment! It is the only thing that has been beter than the last deployment, well because last deployment i made NO friends.  Im looking forward to having daddy back home but in the mean time, i will post a lot about what we do to make the days go by faster, updates on how he is doing, and talk about care packages we send him!!!